I feel like a zombie.
I thought I was getting better; but, all of my emotions feel so fake. I’m pulling away from every one. Yet, I act like everything is okay. I still talk to my friends, go out, and do all of the things a normal person should be doing. Inside, I feel empty. I’ve become a robot and I don’t know what to do. I just want to cry. But, the tears won’t come. I don’t know what’s wrong or why I’m feeling this way. I’m so tired of this.
I’m tired of it all… It all hurts. It hurts so much.
October 18, 2007 -
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2 Comments
Hi, I came across your blog through Gracemark’s and after reading this I just wanted to encourage you to hang in there! Your life has purpose and there is hope, and though at the moment you may not be able to see it, it is there; your purpose and the reason you were created, and that reason is good. If nothing else reflect on that, reflect on that when you are down, use it to counter the negative thoughts in your head, that when they come and assault you tell yourself instead, “no! I have a purpose and a reason for being and that reason is good.” God loves you!
It’s quite normal to feel like you’re going back to square one with your feelings, but don’t let that make you feel that you are actually going back to square one, because you’re not. It just takes time for the mind to process what it’s going through, give it some time, and look for the things that you love to do and do it. Why not try to work for charities that help poor people? It always help those I know to feel proactive that they’re helping someone out there, so they feel useful, and they feel that they are in a better position than someone else, so they feel thankful and better. You are in my prayers sweetheart.